Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Being Thankful

After catching up on Jaena's latest blogs, I feel the need to post something. (By the way, I'm sorry that Mike is no longer making posts, so you're stuck with me....the non-funny one.) :)

Hannah is almost 4 weeks old, and for almost that entire time, I have been in excruciating pain when I nurse her. At times, I would burst into tears as soon as she latched on and would continue for the duration of her sucking. I finally called a lactation consultant and saw my doctor to see what they thought. My doctor took one look at me and said that I had mastitis. She gave me a prescription for penicillin even though I hadn't had it since I was 18 months old because I had broken out in hives. I'm thankful that I'm no longer allergic, it seems! However, a week later I went for my follow-up appointment with the nurse practitioner and she said that I didn't have mastitis, I had a yeast infection! So, I am now taking another medication which does seem to be helping, at least on one side. I am still in lots of pain on one side and just occasionally on the other. She said it will take awhile for the pain to be completely gone, so I'm trying to be patient. While this was all going on, I also had a UTI, for which I had to take a different antibiotic, and I discovered a lump on one breast. (Could anything else happen???) During all of this I struggled with the decision of switching to formula or continuing to breastfeed. I've always dreamed of having my own baby and being able to nurse, and the thought of not being able to because of the pain just crushed me. So, I've kept it up. I went for an ultrasound of the lump on Monday and it is just a cyst. (Thank the Lord!) I had been having silly thoughts about it being cancer and not being able to see my daughter grow up, which just added to all the other disappointments along with the pain.

So, now to the reasons why I am thankful....
*I have a husband who allowed/allows me to cry without making me feel stupid.
*My child is still able to breastfeed and is getting all the benefits from that.
*I am still able to breastfeed my daughter and am getting all the benefits from that.
*I have a child who is healthy and seems like she's been in a growth spurt for the past week and wanting to nurse every 1 1/2 to 2 hours during the day. Ouch! But I'm still thankful....
*We don't have to buy formula!
*I am in less pain now than I was last week!
*I don't have cancer!
*I'm only taking one pill at the moment!

So, thanks to Jaena for helping me put things into perspective! :)


Anonymous said...

I am so glad to hear things are going well. I have several things to be thankful for too! Thanks for reminding me!


Jim and Jaena said...

I'm so sorry things have been so difficult, Kim. Having a new baby around is challenging enough without all of the additional problems...and hormones (I know!) :D

Keetha said...

Kim, I NEVER think you are boring.

Kendra at Hand Prints On The Wall said...

Oh my goodness. You're really going through it, aren't you?! I hope the nursing has gotten better for you, or will soon. I know about the pain! It can be almost unbearable at times. I really admire your persistence. When I had Jada, I got so discouraged I gave up the second day of nursing her. I started trying to give her formula, but she wouldn't take it. Then a friend called me and gave me some encouragement. I decided to give it another try, and I'm so glad I did! I nursed her till she was 15 months. I'm glad the lump was nothing serious. My sister just had the same thing happen to her. But her lump is the size of a plum. They are going to have to remove it. Us mom's are so bad about worrying. Anyways, we had a great time at your house the other night. It was so good to visit with you. We didn't intend on staying so long! I hope you were able to get some rest. Well, tell Mike hi for us!

Keri said...


I'm sorry you've had all this to go through on top of a new baby!! I love your list of thankfulness.